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| Does this picture from the Mad Tea Party from Alice in Wonderland make you think of your own life? |
Okay, I get it now… I’ve reached an age and a point in my life
where I fully understand the mad tea party conversation that took place in “Alice in Wonderland.” I suppose that
statement is one I should not admit to or at the very least be “scared” to
write. Perhaps I should hit my back button
and delete that admission. I won’t because at the moment, life feels very
similar to that “mad tea party.”
Although, instead of being surrounded by the March Hare, the Mad Hatter
and The Dormouse; they are instead random thoughts within my own head. Am I coming or going? Who am I? What do I
want? Do I really want that? Am I right or am I wrong? Am I up or down?
Have you ever questioned your own actions? Did they make
sense to you once, but all of a sudden like someone who has lost their own line
of thought midsentence; do you wonder what you were thinking in the first
place? Do you feel as though you’ve gone
round and round the mulberry bush only to end up where you started off? What happened to that confident feeling that
you had it all together? That you knew what you wanted in life and you had it
figured out – and why didn’t others get it? What was wrong with “them” because
it was ooooh soooo simple.
Perhaps it would be better if I started out this blog entry
with “Once upon a time, there was a girl who was sure of life. Sure of what she wanted. Sure of what she
knew. She was just plain ‘all around
sure.’ Then unfamiliar, unexpected, unplanned, un un un things happened in her
life. And the ‘Uns’ took over, blind
sighted her, spun her around and around until she got that same “Pin-the- Tail-on-the-Donkey” sensation and had no idea just what direction she was headed. In fact, she felt as though ‘the Uns’ had won.”Have the “Uns” won in your life? Are you taking off that “unexpected” blindfold and wondering how on earth you got from a solid point of certainty to an unrecognizable "where-the-heck-am-I" and "how-the-heck-did-I get-here?" point. Your internal GPS goofed big time and now you don’t even know how to get back to where you need to be.
Unfortunately we don’t have an “undo” or a “rewind” in
life. But we do have a God who is
merciful and graceful and who allows us the chance to admit we got it
wrong. We have a God who is forgiving and
patient and who is willing to whisper in our errant ear, “Come child, take my
hand. Let me lead you to where you need to be.”
We only need to admit to this. To take His hand and realize that there
are certain things we cannot do ourselves. Sometimes we make our own set of
circumstances worse by our pride. Maybe our first step in unraveling the knot
of confusion and frustration we’ve made of our lives is admittance and
realizing that its okay to pray for help.
“Lord, somewhere along the way I’ve
lost my sense of direction. I’ve not only lost my way, I’ve lost who I am. This
is something I can’t fix myself. I need
you. You are my Creator. You are the Way, the Truth and the Life (John 14:6). You knew me when
I was created within my mother’s womb (Psalms 139:13). You made me. You know me even better than I know myself. You created me for a reason and even if I don’t
know what that reason is, I know you do. I know confusion is not of you (1 Corinthians 14:33), so I
ask you please to take my hand and direct my steps. While I may not be able to
be certain of myself – I can be certain of You. Help me Father, here is my
hand. I am placing it in Yours. Thank You for Your mercy, Your Grace, Your
patience, Your forgiveness and most of all Your love. In Jesus precious name I pray.” Amen
Hmmmm… Is it just me or did the tea in this cup suddenly become
steeped with more flavor? Are those “Uns”
making a mad dash right out of your mind? The sea of confusion will slowly dissipate
and calm and in its place will be peace and love and understanding. All in due time, or better yet - all in His time.
