Time holds still for no one, as much as we would like to
hold it tight in our hand and savor each moment...
Turn around
And the moment is gone.
Move on to the next one and there is nothing you can do to tie time
down.
The 9 year old girl, who made wishes on daisies, ran through
fields, no worries in her head, the same girl who twirled around and around giggling
and laughing because it made her dizzy, excited because tomorrow she’ll turn those
“much awaited double digits” – 10.
Turn around
That same double-digit girl, the one who did pirouettes at the age of 9 looking
forward to “13” sits on her bed looking at Teen Magazine. Barbie dolls now
tucked away in a box on the attic floor, their former place of occupancy now
taken up by ten different shades of neon fingernail polish and pictures of the
latest boy band.
Turn around
That same girl’s sweet 16.
The world feels as though it is her stage, her thoughts are about the
cute guy in English class, the upcoming weekend and her girlfriends blowing up
her phone with texts. What outfit she
should wear tomorrow, which concert she should attend and how to successfully apply
liquid eyeliner.
Turn around
She’s 18 and graduating from high school – hopes and plans gearing
her up towards college and leaving home. Her car's packed up and that baby girl
you brought home from the hospital just yesterday is off to begin her own life’s
journey. Thoughts of the future filling her head, you stand in her empty
bedroom looking at remnants of the years that have passed wondering how they
have gone by so swiftly. Remembering
your own youth and in awe over the quick passage of time. Time you can’t hold
on to. Time you can’t bring back, time that has brought about many changes. You were once that same girl and now you
stand, looking at your daughter’s vacant room.
Reminiscing and wondering how time could go by so quickly. Wishing there was a way to prolong each
moment but knowing there is not.
Bittersweet moments – some you wish you could redo, others you
wouldn’t change a bit.
Yesterday
you were rejoicing over the pink bundle of joy you were just bringing home…
Yesterday
- you were laughing in delight over the innocent tactics of a 9 year old…
Yesterday
- you were wondering how you were going to make it through her teenage years…
Yesterday
-you were staying up late waiting for her to come home from her first date. Thinking
of all the ways you would maim the young man if he broke your daughter’s heart…
Yesterday –
you were wondering when it was she had grown taller than you…
Turn around
And you’re wondering where the time has gone. Moments that you
hadn’t known you had taken for granted, you realize you had. Time waits for no man, stops for no one and you
wonder why (as you have gotten older) those lazy days of summer have sped
up? What age did that begin to
happen? Why can’t they slow back down?
Turn around
Instead of looking ahead of you, you find yourself spending more
time looking back.
Turn around
Your hair is grey, your body is older and simply not cooperating
with you as it has done in days gone past... Yet you are the same person you always
were. Others may not see it. They may view you as an “old person” but inside
you are still the same. You’re now known
as a “Senior Citizen.” And while it has
some discounting perks, it’s hard to accept because:
Inside you are still - that same 9 year old girl who lay on the
grass and made shapes out of the clouds up above. That
same girl reappears when your grandchildren come to visit, and you revisit with them all
those interesting discoveries of days gone past, as you introduce them to things
your parents, aunts, uncles or grandparents introduced to you, when you were a child... Or perhaps you find yourself having that "how do youuuuu knowwww?" Argument with your grandchild at the table and your legs have suddenly shrunk down to the size of a 6 year old's and your feeling like your wearing those Mary Jane shiny black shoes again and your hair is in pinktails - all because your grandson questioned your "wisdom" with a "how do youuuuuuuuu know???" You shake your head and laugh at yourself for your childish response because you just realize he brought out that "inner child" in you.
Inside you are still - that 13 year old who dances around the living room
when a song from one of the boy bands you once worshiped comes on the radio, bringing
with it all the memories of those teenage years.
Inside you are still - that 16 year old who looks at that same boy band and
giggles now at how old they look, but thinking how you would still “ooooh and
aaaahhhh” over them if you saw them today in person.
Turn aroundLife goes by so quickly. We don’t have any choice in the matter, time passes whether we want it to or not... The only choice we have is to live well, to make every moment count and to handle each moment as gracefully and sincerely as we can. We have no control over how quickly it goes by or to some degree what happens in those moments we are given. So laugh often, live fully, love greatly, hug tighter, don't forget to say your "I love you's" and thank God for each precious gift of a new day that He gives you. Because that is what life is – a very precious gift.
Our cemeteries are full of markers of people who once had lived. They
lived as you and I. Real people, same worries, same
problems, same laughter, same desires, loves and memories – only different eras. Each had
their own story. What is your story? You may not be able to go back but you can live a life
that is full of memories. Memories you can bestow to your children
and their children and their children’s children, so in a sense, we live on through others memories of us.
Turn around
Look, another moment is gone.. We are on to the next... Hey, let's be that 9 year old, 10 year old, 13 year old, 18 year old, senior citizen - whatever stage we are at in life, let's make it count…
1 comment:
I wrote a song with the line
"Once upon a time I held you. Turn around again, our love has disappeared."
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