|Spend Time with the One Who Cares... He Doesn't Mind if You Are a "Dork" or a "Goofball" He Created You That Way!|
I woke up this morning wanting to just sit across the the table from Jesus and pour out all the things that are in my heart, not even knowing where to begin. But I've been feeling like I have "writers block" with my prayers. Its sooooo very easy to feel alone in a room crowded with people. The thing is - I KNOW he's there and ironically I also know that my Bible tells me: "Oh Lord, you have searched me and know me! You know when I sit down and when I rise up; you discern my thoughts from afar, you search out my path and my lyin gdown and are acquainted with all my ways. Even before a word is on my tongue, behold, O Lord, you know it altogether." (Psalms 139:1-4)
He ALREADY knows! And yet He still wants us to come to Him and TELL Him. Why is that sometimes so difficult??? In all the examples I have found in my Bible - Jesus was affective with people because He listened! Because He cared! Because He was compassionate. Because He was direct - AND He met people "where they were in life." Just by being Him people wanted to follow Him. People wanted to listen to Him. People wanted to share with Him. He spoke the truth and He directed people in the way they should go - but He did it in a manner that people could receive! Why can't we be like when ministering to others? Or even ministering to ourselves.... I don't know about you - but lately whenever I try to pray - I see all my sins before me and I'm so busy judging myself that I don't even allow myself the opportunity for the Lord to minister to ME.... Hmmmm even typing this I'm having a self revelation!!! (LOL) Sometimes we are so busy saying "Yes, I know - I need to change A,B,C and I don't know what to do about X,Y, Z" that we aren't allowing ourselves to hear from Him. He is sitting across from us - blinking, looking compassionate and being extremely patient (In my 23 years of being a Christian I've never once pictured Him looking annoyed at me...) while we go off on our self diagnosis tangents. Can you imagine telling the Creator - What you need to do to fix yourself? While being before Him? (Laughing Out Loud). Then of course - we have our brothers and sisters in Christ - some of who are JUST waiting for you to lay out "your dirt" before them so THEY can feel superior or better than YOU because "OMG you are in such a sinner's state! You need to get right with God! You are standing on the brink of hell..." Come on now - Really???! Really??!!! Does THAT make a person want to share??? Does that make a person feel better??? Does that make a person want to repent or get right with God??? HONESTLY. I think maybe I was once like that - unintentionally. Maybe that is why over the last 4 years God has humbled me. Has brought me to my knees. I realize more and more that I shall leave the judging to God. Some brethern would say "Well the Bible is the judge." Yeah - but I never saw Jesus beat someone over the head with the Word of God. Every time He ministered to a sinner - Even the thief upon the cross - He did it with LOVE. He did it with compassion. He did it with understanding - so He could REACH who that person really was inside.
We don't always know what it is happening inside a person before we judge them. Instead of helping deal with the heart of the manner - we look at the symptoms. When was the last time you really listened? Really?
I realize more and more - that I've been looking for someone to listen to me. But afraid they'd be shocked and judgmental in all I've been through - so instead, I've kept it to myself. What I really need to do - is get in my "quiet place" and spend sometime alone with the Lord. Talk with Him. Pour everything out - and then, LISTEN. Just listen and receive. Think I need to plan a Breakfast, Lunch or Dinner date with Him - myself... How about you?