It has now been seven years since I started this blog. How quickly time goes by! We are many members but we are one in the body of Christ. Therefore you do not journey alone! Hopefully through this site you will be encouraged by the fact that many things you are going through in your own walk, others are going through (or have gone through) as well. Sometimes we think we are "going through things alone." But we are not. God said that "He would Never Leave Nor Forsake Us." (Hebrews 13:5) and that "There is Nothing New Under The Sun." (Ecclesiastes 1:9). No man is an island. It's easy to forget that. May the words in this blog help you to think, encourage you in whatever spiritual state you are in and may the Lord use them to help us to grow in Him! He is the Author and Finisher of our faith!

I don’t want any readers to think that I am “promoting” being a prodigal. I definitely am not. But what I am hoping to do – is to encourage those of us who either have had or are currently experiencing a hard time in our walk to be honest about it. Personal conviction is a powerful thing, especially if you truly love the Lord. I think that sometimes the Body of Christ critiques and judges to the point where the person who is at the other end of that pointing finger feels ostracized, alienated and alone. I don't think that that is what Jesus intended. When I read through my Bible - I see a firm yet gentle restoration that Jesus ministered to those around Him. Look at John 21:15-19. When Peter who was at an all time low point in his walk - he was firmly, yet lovingly restored by Jesus. He didn't tear him down, or yell or make him feel any worse then he already did. He spoke to him lovingly and gently - and in doing so, Peter was able to repent and minister in a much more powerful, humble and confident way and it became one of the largest ministries ever.

Please note that I am only a vessel, my calling - to write. I dedicate this blog to the Lord and ask that He use it to reach out and touch whoever needs a special, loving, personal touch from Him. My hope is that the Holy Spirit allows you to see Him through the words (and not me). We go through things so that we can extend our right hand of fellowship behind us to assist and help someone else. Our Bible is the same today, as it was yesterday as it will be tomorrow. (I am far from perfect and do not profess to have all the answers...) but the good news is - Our Heavenly Father does! His love, forgiveness, grace and mercy is real!Nothing you are experiencing in your walk comes as a surprise to Him! May He be glorified through this blog and may God bless you at whatever stage in your walk you are in!~

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I am a Breast Cancer Survivor
I was diagnosed with early stage triple negative breast cancer on June 24th, 2010 - I have been cancer free for 7 years now. It was only a chapter in my life - NOT my life, but the impact is one that has changed my life forever. Its important for women to know that 80% of the breast cancer diagnosis come from women who don't have a history of it in their family (My family didn't). Early detection is the key. For more information please click on the pink ribbon above. It could save your life.


April 11, 2014

Run Like The Wind...

"Let us run with endurance the race that is set before us.” (Hebrews Chapter 12)
I woke up early this morning (as has become a new habit of mine over the last several weeks), formally a night owl I have transformed into an early bird.  Last Summer I downloaded the “Couch to 5K” running program onto my IPhone at first I thought, “Me, run? That’s a laugh – it’s NEVER going to happen…” Nevertheless, I decided to give it a shot.  I joined an inexpensive gym, got on the treadmill and started the program.  Three or four times a week I made a commitment to myself to keep at it, each workout section ranging from  20 to 40 minutes, breaking me in slowly with a warm up, brisk walk, and eventually intervals of jogging then running over a 12 week period.   I completed the total program by October and much to my surprise (and this did not happen overnight…) found myself actually enjoying these sessions of steady runs!    Feeling a sense of completion and a bit of well-earned self-pride, I wasn’t a couch potato anymore! I boldly moved forward and downloaded the next program – “5K to 10K.”  Now this program is a bit more difficult, it includes intervals of jogging, steady run and a fast run.  It encourages me over a period of days and times to move forward.   It is not easy, and there are times when I wonder if I can keep going until the daily program is completed – but still I push myself to continue.  Being a divorced parent, the best time for me to workout is early morning when the gym first opens.  Now when I say “early morning” I mean wake up at 4:15 am and get to the gym by 5 am.   This morning, I woke up at 4:15 am and just lay there looking up at my ceiling.  I decided to go back to sleep instead of going to work out.  It started my day off on the “wrong foot.”
I grew up in a small town near Boston.  The Boston Marathon runs right across Beacon Street. I grew up off of Beacon Street.  Growing up, it had been a family tradition to go down the street and watch the runners run the race.  What perserverance it takes to run the Boston Marathon.  Those runners push themselves in the most amazing way.  It takes training and discipline and perserverance to run any race. It takes a mindset to continue on - even when everything in you doesn't want to keep going.
As I continued to stick to the program, I started to see a connection between my body, my mind and my spirit.  How the three are truly tied up in one.  Hard as it is for me to get up in the morning that early, how rewarding it feels once I have gotten up, driven to the gym and completed my workout.  I feel a sense of accomplishment, energized and ready to begin my day.  On the days I don’t get out of bed, I find myself lagging with a lack of energy, on edge, irritable with a lack of patience and just all around “yucky.”  This is not something that happened “overnight” it has been a process. 
The Bible tells us:
 1 Corinthians 6:19 “Your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit, Whom you have received of God.”
Therefore it is important that we take care of our physical bodies, for they are our “temple.”  I never really paid much mind to that before, never being an athletic person, but after getting into the habit of working out 30 -40 minutes a day, 3-4 days a week, I can see how it truly affects my attitude, my mind, how I feel about myself and even extends to how I treat others, not to mention what it does for my health.  Since I have begun working out I have seen my health improve, and being a cancer survivor this is a definite plus.    Often we are so busy with our lives that we neglect ourselves.  Now I am in no way a “gym rat,” I go in complete my 30 – 60 minutes workout, 3-4 times a week, hit the shower and then I’m outta there.   But the outcome is not only felt through my physical body, as I have indicated above, but through my mind and my spirit.
This also got me thinking about my spiritual walk.  How as in the case with the beginning of trying the “Couch Potato to 5K Program” there were times I wanted to stop, to give up, feeling like I couldn’t go on.  It was too difficult, too hard.  I was too tired.  But I didn’t – I persevered. I kept pushing myself forward.  Giving myself “pep” talks.  There are many times along our spiritual walk that we have to do the same thing, especially if you have had a prodigal period in that journey.  The Bible says: 
Hebrews 12:1 “Therefore we also, since we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses, let us lay aside every weight, and the sin which so easily ensnares us, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us.”
There have been so many times over the last four years that I have wanted to give up.  Where I have really asked myself, “What is the point??!”  But even at my lowest of moments, I have perservered.   It says:
Galatians 6:9 “Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up.”
Why is it so hard to do that which is good for us?  Do that which benefits us? Physically, spiritually, emotionally, our bodies, spirits and minds are all tied together.  If you don’t take care of your body there are physical consequences.  If you don’t feed yourself spiritually or pray – there are consequences.  All of these affect your mind and therefore your life.
Honestly, it has not been until I got into the habit of exercising over the last 8 months that I can see the difference it has made in my life.  It has made me stronger, it has made my mind sharper, it has made me realize that not only do I need to exercise my body, but my spirit and my mind.  I have realized that there may always be something that I need to work on – that is okay, that is life.  As long as we have breathe in our body we will always have something to better.  I think that is a good thing, and I think it is humbling to have that realization.  Coming to the point I am at (and still have so much farther to go) I can see all of this, myself.  Just like it says in the Bible:
Psalms 34:8 “Taste and see that the Lord is good!”
There are realizations that can only hit deep when we experience them and realize them personally for ourselves.  My needs are different from your needs. My strengths may be your weaknesses; your strengths may be my weaknesses.  But it is something that you can’t discover for yourself until you try it yourself.  There is a big difference.  It becomes personal.
Romans 7:19 “For I do not do the good I want to do, but the evil I do not want to do--this I keep on doing.”
That is a scripture that I find myself wondering ALL the time.  There is always room for improvement, always.  My motivation with my body being the healthiest it can be is not only due to the fact that I am a cancer survivor.  No one ever expects (at ANY age) that they will come down with a life threatening illness.  We were created to live forever – it is only because of the sin of Adam and Eve that sin entered into the world, and hence – death.  So you never feel as though “you have had enough life.”  When I was diagnosed with breast cancer four years ago, it was a shock (to say the very least).  It was a wake up call for my body, my spirit and my mind.  The three are tied together.  Your body is your tent, your spirit is housed in the tent and your mind – to me, is part of your soul.  All three affect your life.  They go hand in hand.  When you think about taking care of yourself – think about ALL three parts of YOU.
You matter to God.  Isn’t it time you mattered to yourself?  It won’t be easy – but nothing WORTH anything ever is.  Each new day that you are blessed with is a new blank sheet of life to write on.  Isn’t it time to start a new chapter?  Write well.  These moments never come back again…

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