Has something blown you away? Time to go to the One who controls the wind - and get your life back on track...
There are days when I feel just like the last scene in the movie "Forrest Gump" you know the scene - when you see the leaf just drifting aimlessly along with the wind. Those are days when I just want to cry out to God. Just cry out to Him in frusturation and confusion and aggravation. I want to say, "God! I have made a mess of things and I don't know how to fix it!! HELP ME!" Or I want to say, "Father! I am doing ALL I know HOW to do - I can't think anymore! HELP ME!" Or I want to say, "Life wasn't suppose to be like this Lord, what can I do to get back on track?!" Have you ever felt that way?
I've just gone through a major life change. One that I saw coming, had been in the works for years - but I didn't realize all I would feel when it actually occurred. When it was all said and done. I thought I was ready for it. I thought I would be fine with it. I thought I wouldn't feel a thing. I was wrong. While my reaction and feelings surprised me, they didn't surprise God.
"What has been will be again,what has been done will be done again; there is nothing new under the sun." (Ecclesiastes 1:9)
That is true, yet it feels SO different when "you" are the person "it" is happening to... It's okay not to have "all the answers." I don't think God expects us to. In fact, I think He might raise an eyebrow at you if you acted as if you did. HE is the great I AM. HE is the Alpha and the Omega. HE is our beginning and our end. HE is the one we should turn to when we have hit rock bottom - or are on our way down...
God knows I don't have all the answers, but I think that is why Jesus says to us:
"Come to me all who are weary and burdened and I will give you rest."(Matthew 11:28)
He is our rest. He wants us to come to Him. Just go to Him in prayer and trust that He hears you because He does. There are many situations in life that we get in to albeit our own doing, or just life happens. There are burdens that are too heavy for us to carry. We weren't meant to carry them and when we do they sometimes double us over from the load. Bring it to the cross. Talk to Jesus. He wants you to. Pour out your heart and when you do, you will feel lighter.
We aren't that floating leaf randomly blowing with the wind. We have a purpose and a reason for being here. We can't go backwards and sometimes forward feels like we are walking in heavy muck. But if we pray from our hearts - sincere conversations with God, we can trust that as it says:
"Weeping may endure for a night, but joy comes in the morning." (Psalms 30:5)
God allows certain situations to occur in our lives to draw us closer to Him and help us to realize that we need Him. We do. So lean on the Lord.
"Trust in the Lord with ALL your heart. Lean not on your own understanding. In ALL your ways acknowledge Him and He will make your paths straight." (Proverbs 3:5)
Isn't it about time you stopped trying to work things out on your own? You have someone who cares about you. He's waiting... Just try it and see. Try it and you'll see. Open up your mouth and talk to Him as if He was just sitting right there before you (because He is). Pour out your heart - your concerns, your thoughts, your frusturations, the things that you are anxious over. He's listening. He cares. If He didn't care He would not have allowed them to put Him up on that cross and crucify Him for your sins - and mine. He did it because He LOVES you. He cares. Believe it and take the time to go some place quiet and have a discussion with Him. It won't be a one sided conversation. If you pour out your heart to Him, He will respond. One way will be that you will feel the removal of that burden from your shoulders just by taking the time to talk to Him. To pour out your heart. It may feel silly at first - but once you open your mouth and speak the words will pour out and afterwards, you will feel a peace like a healing balm that will come upon you. (That is the Holy Spirit). He will minister to you. He will soothe you. You will feel what the Bible says is "the peace that passes ALL understanding." (Psalms 4:7). He loves you, He cares, He wants to have a relationship with you. A relationship requires communication. Communication requires allowing Him to see what is in your heart and mind. The truth is He already knows - but He'd like to hear it from you JUST the same. TRY IT. He's waiting, He wants you to - and the truth is - You need to. I need to, too.