It has now been seven years since I started this blog. How quickly time goes by! We are many members but we are one in the body of Christ. Therefore you do not journey alone! Hopefully through this site you will be encouraged by the fact that many things you are going through in your own walk, others are going through (or have gone through) as well. Sometimes we think we are "going through things alone." But we are not. God said that "He would Never Leave Nor Forsake Us." (Hebrews 13:5) and that "There is Nothing New Under The Sun." (Ecclesiastes 1:9). No man is an island. It's easy to forget that. May the words in this blog help you to think, encourage you in whatever spiritual state you are in and may the Lord use them to help us to grow in Him! He is the Author and Finisher of our faith!

I don’t want any readers to think that I am “promoting” being a prodigal. I definitely am not. But what I am hoping to do – is to encourage those of us who either have had or are currently experiencing a hard time in our walk to be honest about it. Personal conviction is a powerful thing, especially if you truly love the Lord. I think that sometimes the Body of Christ critiques and judges to the point where the person who is at the other end of that pointing finger feels ostracized, alienated and alone. I don't think that that is what Jesus intended. When I read through my Bible - I see a firm yet gentle restoration that Jesus ministered to those around Him. Look at John 21:15-19. When Peter who was at an all time low point in his walk - he was firmly, yet lovingly restored by Jesus. He didn't tear him down, or yell or make him feel any worse then he already did. He spoke to him lovingly and gently - and in doing so, Peter was able to repent and minister in a much more powerful, humble and confident way and it became one of the largest ministries ever.

Please note that I am only a vessel, my calling - to write. I dedicate this blog to the Lord and ask that He use it to reach out and touch whoever needs a special, loving, personal touch from Him. My hope is that the Holy Spirit allows you to see Him through the words (and not me). We go through things so that we can extend our right hand of fellowship behind us to assist and help someone else. Our Bible is the same today, as it was yesterday as it will be tomorrow. (I am far from perfect and do not profess to have all the answers...) but the good news is - Our Heavenly Father does! His love, forgiveness, grace and mercy is real!Nothing you are experiencing in your walk comes as a surprise to Him! May He be glorified through this blog and may God bless you at whatever stage in your walk you are in!~

I am a Breast Cancer Survivor

I am a Breast Cancer Survivor
I was diagnosed with early stage triple negative breast cancer on June 24th, 2010 - I have been cancer free for 7 years now. It was only a chapter in my life - NOT my life, but the impact is one that has changed my life forever. Its important for women to know that 80% of the breast cancer diagnosis come from women who don't have a history of it in their family (My family didn't). Early detection is the key. For more information please click on the pink ribbon above. It could save your life.


July 30, 2011

Please pass me some of that Abundancy... Ahhh yes - thank you!

Be careful what you ask for... You MIGHT just get it... Is the saying that is going through my head these days.  I feel like one of the cars in the movie "Cars."  God is "under my hood" working his magic in a way that only the Creator knows how to do.

When you open yourself up for the Lord to change you - and you don't SEE how He will, it doesn't mean He won't.  Maybe He is giving you "new realizations" about yourself?  Maybe He's giving you a second chance? He Created YOU its NOT that hard for HIM to do.  "Not by power, not by might but BY MY SPIRIT" (sayeth the Lord).

Oh how we think we know ourselves so well! Then perhaps we are given a viewpoint from Him that shows that we really know NOTHING about ourselves afterall.  I think that is because we see in part - but HE sees in full.  The changes He makes inside of us, enable us to see things more clearly.

Maybe the "front window" of your car needs cleaning.  So you can see things more clearly. Were you looking at things with "rose colored glasses?" And once your windshield was cleaned off you realize that what you thought you were seeing was not really what was there afterall?  Maybe at first you felt shocked.  That's not what I saw! You said.  Is God showing you the truth?

I have found that when He does that with me.  He does it with a gentle arm around my shoulder.  Probably because He knows I am my own "worst critic."  His Fatherly voice whispering in my ear. "There Kelly, do you see now? Sit with me a while longer. I know what I'm doing in your life.  You don't always have to know. But you do have to know that what I DO and what I say is for a reason that perhaps at this time you cannot comprehend.  Much like when you try to direct your own children into a certain direction, and all they see you saying is NO."

As the road before me gets clearer.  I know what I want.  I know what I see. The best place to be is in the center of His will.  I'm not saying it doesn't cause "growing pains." Ohhh how I am feeling them.  I'm not saying it will be easy - Oh how its NOT.  I am not sure what direction He is taking me.  But I know that even though I have felt like He is far away - He hasn't been, He's not.  He can take my mistakes and use them to glorify Himself.  I guess that is the one good thing about being a person who is transparent.  I don't know "how" to be "fake."  I never have.

What I love so much about the Lord.  Is that He is in the business of "changing us."  When we can't do it ourselves, and when we open ourselves up to Him doing it, He does miraculous things.  He tinkers inside of us and changes our desires to line up with His will.  Maybe its because we are not strong enough to do it ourselves. He takes the desire right out of us. CHANGES us so that we no longer want what we thought we wanted. I think its a process though.  Not something that happens overnight, although I suppose He can make it that way, afterall - He's God! He is able.

I don't think God makes bad things happen to us.  I think that is the result of sin in the world.  But I DO think that God uses the bad things that happen to us for GOOD. I don't think God "gave me" breast cancer.  I think He used it to capture my attention.  To show me what is important to me. What NEEDS to be important. Maybe I would have settled all my life.  Maybe I wouldn't have come to the point that I am at now.  I am not "glad" I went through breast cancer.  I rejoice that I am healed and cancer-free.  That He brought me through it.  I am forever changed inside and out.  It made me realize ohhh so many things that perhaps I would not have realized before.  Things like:

1) I have much clearer understanding of what is important and what isn't.
2) I try to live life FULLY because I realize its a GIFT and can be taken away at ANY TIME
3) I have more compassion and am less selfish
4) I realize that I can never ever ever settle for LESS at any given point in my life
5) I have become less judgmental.  If you haven't walked in someone's shoes - what GIVES you the right to judge them??? You don't KNOW the whole story. But God does. Leave the judging to Him.  People followed Jesus because He spoke the truth with COMPASSION.  How sad it is that that is greatly lacking in most of our churches today. When you think about that - that is a cancer, in and of itself! It needs to be corrected so that brothers and sisters in Christ can be restored. The hurting should be able to come to the church, not feel like they have to "stay away." That MUST grieve the Holy Spirit greatly...

I also have less tolerance for people who say they want to change but don't.  Not for the people that "can't" but for the people who are unhappy in their lives and unwilling to do anything about it.  I have less tolerance for empty promises. Actions mean a lot more to me because they show the intent.  If you want something to truly happen, you will do everything you know how to make it happen.  That's the change. That's the difference.

I know what I want - do YOU??? Ask yourself if you don't.  What is important to me right now at this very moment is:  My health, stability, routine, the well being of my children, the ability to move forward. To be surrounded by people who love me and are my real friends. I am far from perfect - but at least I can admit it to God.  I see no point in hiding it, He sees everything anyways. He knows the desires of your heart.  He created you!

Life is short - God said that He wants us to have life and have it ABUNDANTLY.  He wouldn't have said that in His Word if He didn't mean it. I think its time I had a helping of "abundancy" - how about YOU?

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