|“In Your book were all written the days that were ordained for me, when as yet there was not one of them” (Ps. 139:16).|
When it is all said and done, I will feel as though I did the best I could.
I say that with certainty, mistakes and all...
Oh how I wish that I would hear a rhema word from you like the prophets in the Old Testament did, but I guess then we would be under the law instead of Your splendid merciful grace.
When it is said and done, perhaps You will sit me down and put the "movie reel" of my life on. Before I could only see it in part - but then I shall see it in full and perhaps it will all make sense to me... The parts I am most ashamed of will have been blotted out with the blood of Jesus, because I made Him my Lord and Savior.
When it is all said and done, I will probably wish I had been wiser and not as hard headed as I was, I will wonder WHY you put up with me. WHY you love me? I will wonder why it took me so long to learn things that should have been so completely obvious.
Maybe I will be amazed by seeing that all the times I felt rejected and alone You were right there by my side.
Maybe I will be astonished by all the people You used through my love for You to come to Christ. Amazed by how far reaching You allowed this blog to go throughout the world... When all is said and done.
Maybe my life will have counted for something - "Only those things you do in Christ shall last." I pray there will be many things that remain for, through and in You.
When it is all said and done, it doesn't matter if my life was lived the way I planned, because when I stand before You, it will only be Your plans that matter. When you love someone you long to delight and show them. I pray there are many moments when you see I tried...
When it is all said and done I will understand. I'm quite sure I will feel humbled by it all, sad by the opportunities I missed and grateful for your grace and mercy which have been mainstays throughout my walk.
I'm quite sure I will fall in love with You a new, filled with complete understanding and wisdom and knowledge of things I didn't know or understand previously.
When it is all said and done, I will love You, Lord for all eternity and be forever grateful that you removed the blinders from eyes so that even if in life I could only understand or see You in part, You gave me the hope and understanding that I would love You for ALL eternity.
When it is said and done...
In spite of all of my imperfections (which are forever before me), but of which You are and have been aware of, since You are my Creator... I love You Lord. Forgive the times I've missed the mark due to my own insecurities or stupidity. I hope you know that for all eternity I will be forever grateful that YOU are my God.
I pray that before it is said and done, I will have accomplished all that You have made me to do. So that I can hear, "Well done, my good and faithful servant." When all is said and done...