|My heart is heavy with more than I can fathom.|
I need to turn to the Rock that is higher than I... Do you feel it too?
Times like this require prayer and conversation with the One who knows...
Today is a day where I just want to cry out to God, "Why?!" Not in a disrespectful manner but in one that is an honest question. Sometimes life seems so unfair and if we are to have a true "personal" relationship with Him, we have to be honest in our communications. I think God would want us to be honest about how we feel anyways - because truthfully, He ALREADY knows.
Think about it - if we are in a relationship (you and I), and I'm troubled about something, but I don't want to discuss it because I think it will bring up an argument or cause problems in our relationship, then I am just holding onto all those emotions, frustrations and pent up feelings inside. Even if I don't talk about it, I'm probably going to stew over it and if you know me well enough and are observant then you are going to realize that something is wrong. If this is the case when you are in a relationship with someone, how much more so is it with your Heavenly Father?
Lord, you have examined me
and know all about me.
2 You know when I sit down and when I get up.
You know my thoughts before I think them.
3 You know where I go and where I lie down.
You know everything I do.
4 Lord, even before I say a word,
you already know it.
5 You are all around me—in front and in back—
and have put your hand on me.
6 Your knowledge is amazing to me;
it is more than I can understand.
Where can I run from you?
8 If I go up to the heavens, you are there.
If I lie down in the grave, you are there.
9 If I rise with the sun in the east
and settle in the west beyond the sea,
10 even there you would guide me.
With your right hand you would hold me.
Let the light around me turn into night.”
12 But even the darkness is not dark to you.
The night is as light as the day;
darkness and light are the same to you.
you formed me in my mother’s body.
14 I praise you because you made me in an amazing and wonderful way.
What you have done is wonderful.
I know this very well.
15 You saw my bones being formed
as I took shape in my mother’s body.
When I was put together there,
16 you saw my body as it was formed.
All the days planned for me were written in your book
before I was one day old.
They are so many!
18 If I could count them,
they would be more than all the grains of sand.
When I wake up,
I am still with you.
Get away from me, you murderers!
20 They say evil things about you.
Your enemies use your name thoughtlessly.
21 Lord, I hate those who hate you;
I hate those who rise up against you.
22 I feel only hate for them;
they are my enemies.
test me and know my anxious thoughts.
24 See if there is any bad thing in me.
Lead me on the road to everlasting life.
We need to trust Him. When we can't trust our circumstances and we can't trust our feelings and we are just feeling waaaaaaaaaaay overwhelmed and heavy burdened - we need to trust Him.
"Lord, I'm tired. I've run out of answers, solutions for my current circumstances. I have done all I humanly know how to do and it isn't enough... Which tells me that "I need to go to the rock that is Higher than I" (That's You Father) and bring this season in my life to You. I thank You so much that I can do that through Your shed blood on the cross. I thank You soooooo much that while I am feeling "put out" about me - you are not. You say that I can come to You in prayer, so here I am, standing in the need. Please help me. Please hold back the hands of the devourer and be victorious in my life. You say You came so that I can have life and have it abundantly - but that abundancy is not from my own works and doings - it is provided by You. So please wash me with the precious blood of Jesus, forgive me for my shortcomings and sins and help me. You say, "You have not because You ask not" well here am I standing before You asking. You know what the situation is, You know the Way, You know the answer. I give my burdens to You. Forgive me for my sins, please work out this season in my life where You can be glorified and I can walk in the victory that Jesus has already provided for me. Lift up my heavy heart and fill it with Your peace that passes ALL understanding. I thank You Father and I ask You all of this - in Jesus' precious name. AMEN."
Now it's your turn - talk to Him. You don't need fancy words or anything other than You being real before Him. Remember, He ALREADY knows what is troubling you or what is in your heart - you just need to converse with Him. YES it can be humbling but the peace that comes from knowing that you need His help and He wants to be there for you will help you to unload those burdens. TALK TO HIM in whatever words you need. He is there and He is listening. Try it. He truly cares for you. And when He has answered your prayer (with whatever that answer may be) trust that He knows what is best for you - because He does. Remember, He sees in full, we only see in part - so He knows your whole story. Remember to thank Him for the answer when it occurs - whatever that answer may be... He's got you, of that you can surely believe.