It has now been seven years since I started this blog. How quickly time goes by! We are many members but we are one in the body of Christ. Therefore you do not journey alone! Hopefully through this site you will be encouraged by the fact that many things you are going through in your own walk, others are going through (or have gone through) as well. Sometimes we think we are "going through things alone." But we are not. God said that "He would Never Leave Nor Forsake Us." (Hebrews 13:5) and that "There is Nothing New Under The Sun." (Ecclesiastes 1:9). No man is an island. It's easy to forget that. May the words in this blog help you to think, encourage you in whatever spiritual state you are in and may the Lord use them to help us to grow in Him! He is the Author and Finisher of our faith!

I don’t want any readers to think that I am “promoting” being a prodigal. I definitely am not. But what I am hoping to do – is to encourage those of us who either have had or are currently experiencing a hard time in our walk to be honest about it. Personal conviction is a powerful thing, especially if you truly love the Lord. I think that sometimes the Body of Christ critiques and judges to the point where the person who is at the other end of that pointing finger feels ostracized, alienated and alone. I don't think that that is what Jesus intended. When I read through my Bible - I see a firm yet gentle restoration that Jesus ministered to those around Him. Look at John 21:15-19. When Peter who was at an all time low point in his walk - he was firmly, yet lovingly restored by Jesus. He didn't tear him down, or yell or make him feel any worse then he already did. He spoke to him lovingly and gently - and in doing so, Peter was able to repent and minister in a much more powerful, humble and confident way and it became one of the largest ministries ever.

Please note that I am only a vessel, my calling - to write. I dedicate this blog to the Lord and ask that He use it to reach out and touch whoever needs a special, loving, personal touch from Him. My hope is that the Holy Spirit allows you to see Him through the words (and not me). We go through things so that we can extend our right hand of fellowship behind us to assist and help someone else. Our Bible is the same today, as it was yesterday as it will be tomorrow. (I am far from perfect and do not profess to have all the answers...) but the good news is - Our Heavenly Father does! His love, forgiveness, grace and mercy is real!Nothing you are experiencing in your walk comes as a surprise to Him! May He be glorified through this blog and may God bless you at whatever stage in your walk you are in!~

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January 12, 2015

OUCH - The Double Edged Sword Strikes Again...

God is amazing… I have discovered with the start of this New Year that you have to be careful for what you pray for, because you just *might* get it…  I prayed for a deeper walk with God.  I prayed that if there was anything that God wanted to change within me, that He would bring it to my attention so I could (with His assistance) change it.  Because of that innocent, naïve, truly heart-felt prayer I am currently experiencing one of those “ouch” moments.  Have you ever had an “ouch” moment with God?  Well, I can honestly tell you that the scripture:
“For the word of God is living and active and sharper than any two-edged sword, and piercing as far as the division of soul and spirit, of both joints and marrow, and able to judge the thoughts and intentions of the heart. And there is no creature hidden from His sight, but all things are open and laid bare to the eyes of Him with whom we have to do.” (Hebrews 4:12-13)
The above scripture is true, when you pray a genuine prayer asking God to reveal to you the things you need to change, He says, “alrighty then! I was waiting for you to ask, now let me reveal it to you,” and then He shows you.  Now I don’t know about you, but I happen to be really hard headed and it takes me a while to figure out what it is God is saying to me; to say we have a patient loving God is not an exaggeration.  What God revealed to me took me by surprise, and I share it with you so that you can search your own hearts and see what it is He is saying to you.
He told me that I need to work on trusting Him more, for every part of my life and I need to put that trust in action. OUCH…
My post previous to this one dealt with realizing when a Word comes from God that you feel a confirmation in your spirit about it.  I felt a confirmation in mine, one that made me know that this word was true.  If you get quiet before God – so that it is just you and Him, what is it that He is saying to you? And what are you doing about it?
He never speaks to me in a loud commanding voice, His voice is always soft, gentle, loving and patient with me.  I was listening to a Christian Conference on a CD I had purchased from a ministry, when I heard His quiet voice tell me, “Kelly, you don’t trust me.”
“Sure I do Father,” I responded. “Of course I do… What do you mean I don’t trust You?”  And He began to show me the areas of my life where I have either tried to handle things on my own accord or areas that I haven’t trusted Him enough to give over to Him. OUCH.  As each area that I haven’t allowed Him to handle came across my mind, I felt a confirmation in my spirit that He was right.  Although He didn’t say it to me in an accusatory manner, I felt ashamed of myself as I realized, as much as I love Him, I haven’t trusted Him completely and it is something in my walk (in order to have a more intimate relationship with Him), I need to work on.  You see, trust and faith go hand in hand.  If you don’t “trust” God you also don’t have faith to believe He will do what He says He will do, because if you did – you would have trusted Him in the first place.  OUCH.
So not only do I need to work on trusting Him, but I also need to work on believing that in trusting Him (and showing Him this by my actions and not just by my words) that I can believe that God will do what He says in His word He will do.
“Now faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see.”  (Hebrews 11:1)
I could get real personal and transparent with exactly what those areas of trust are – and I probably will in future posts, but for now what He has revealed to me still smarts (OUCH) and I need to think, pray and digest the areas in my life that He has shown me I have lacked trusting Him.  Now that I know what those areas are, I need to make the adjustments in my life to change those areas so that I can walk by faith, trusting God that He is able and trustworthy for me to hand Him each one.
What is God saying to you?  Are you listening? If He has revealed something to you and you are still “smarting” over that revelation, are you making the changes you need to make in order to have a deeper walk with Him?  He didn’t say it would be easy, but it is definitely worth it.
“Brothers and sisters, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus. All of us, then, who are mature should take such a view of things. And if on some point you think differently, that too God will make clear to you. Only let us live up to what we have already attained.” (Philippians 3:16).
I had to ask myself, if I am not trusting God, who can I or who am I trusting? There is nothing that I can do in and of myself. 
'Not by might nor by power, but by my Spirit,' says the Lord .(Zechariah 4:6)
God desires to bless us, He desires to minister to us, He desires that we will live life abundantly.  When we trust that He knows so much better than we do, we realize that His plans are so much better than our own.  We just need to trust Him.  I am recognizing that part of trusting Him is recognizing that I need to bring every thought into submission to Him.
“We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ. (2 Corinthians 10:5)
This is something that is not easy to do!  Especially if you are an independent, worldly intelligent person! But this is where the decision as to who we are going to trust – ourselves or HIM enters in.  As God revealed to me that this is an area that I need to work on in order to grow closer in my walk with Him and accomplish the work that the Lord has me to do,  He showed me some of the areas that I have not trusted Him in and I actually found myself feeling rather foolish.  Prayer requests and desires that I have brought before the Lord only to take them back to try to figure out or fulfill on my own.  Imagine not fully believing that the Creator of the Universe could not handle a measly prayer request?  I found myself humbly asking God for forgiveness.  More and more I realize that a relationship is a two way street.  It is one where it should not only be made of words, but of actions. God wants us to show Him (as He has - and does - show us) how much we love Him.
"And without faith it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes to him must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who earnestly seek him." (Hebrews 11:6)
That double-edged sword cuts deep. But in the same way that it cuts, it reveals what needs to be healed and if we allow ourselves to be open to it - it does just that, heals. What OUCH moment are you having? What is it showing you about YOU?  You can bet that whatever it is, the pain is for your good, don't trust me on this - trust Him.

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