It has now been seven years since I started this blog. How quickly time goes by! We are many members but we are one in the body of Christ. Therefore you do not journey alone! Hopefully through this site you will be encouraged by the fact that many things you are going through in your own walk, others are going through (or have gone through) as well. Sometimes we think we are "going through things alone." But we are not. God said that "He would Never Leave Nor Forsake Us." (Hebrews 13:5) and that "There is Nothing New Under The Sun." (Ecclesiastes 1:9). No man is an island. It's easy to forget that. May the words in this blog help you to think, encourage you in whatever spiritual state you are in and may the Lord use them to help us to grow in Him! He is the Author and Finisher of our faith!

I don’t want any readers to think that I am “promoting” being a prodigal. I definitely am not. But what I am hoping to do – is to encourage those of us who either have had or are currently experiencing a hard time in our walk to be honest about it. Personal conviction is a powerful thing, especially if you truly love the Lord. I think that sometimes the Body of Christ critiques and judges to the point where the person who is at the other end of that pointing finger feels ostracized, alienated and alone. I don't think that that is what Jesus intended. When I read through my Bible - I see a firm yet gentle restoration that Jesus ministered to those around Him. Look at John 21:15-19. When Peter who was at an all time low point in his walk - he was firmly, yet lovingly restored by Jesus. He didn't tear him down, or yell or make him feel any worse then he already did. He spoke to him lovingly and gently - and in doing so, Peter was able to repent and minister in a much more powerful, humble and confident way and it became one of the largest ministries ever.

Please note that I am only a vessel, my calling - to write. I dedicate this blog to the Lord and ask that He use it to reach out and touch whoever needs a special, loving, personal touch from Him. My hope is that the Holy Spirit allows you to see Him through the words (and not me). We go through things so that we can extend our right hand of fellowship behind us to assist and help someone else. Our Bible is the same today, as it was yesterday as it will be tomorrow. (I am far from perfect and do not profess to have all the answers...) but the good news is - Our Heavenly Father does! His love, forgiveness, grace and mercy is real!Nothing you are experiencing in your walk comes as a surprise to Him! May He be glorified through this blog and may God bless you at whatever stage in your walk you are in!~

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I am a Breast Cancer Survivor
I was diagnosed with early stage triple negative breast cancer on June 24th, 2010 - I have been cancer free for 7 years now. It was only a chapter in my life - NOT my life, but the impact is one that has changed my life forever. Its important for women to know that 80% of the breast cancer diagnosis come from women who don't have a history of it in their family (My family didn't). Early detection is the key. For more information please click on the pink ribbon above. It could save your life.


January 21, 2015

What is the Foundation of Your House? Solid Ground or Sand?... Are You Sure?????

Which Life Belongs to YOU?
 Yesterday was my semi-annual check up with my Oncologist over at The Dana-Farber Cancer Institute.  As of June of 2015 I will be celebrating my 5th Cancer-free Anniversary.  This is a big deal because when you have been diagnosed with cancer, they watch you closely for the first 5 years to make sure you don’t have a recurrence.  I knew I wouldn’t have a recurrence because God healed me.  I am *not* in remission, I am healed. God healed me. Still, always the night before I feel anxious and unable to sleep - because no one expects to face a life threatening illness in the first place - it is not something one "plans for." And all kinds of memories come flooding back prior to each follow-up appointment any survivor (and I think I can speak for my other pink sisters in this regard) can vouch for this and relate to what I am saying, it is not easy to go back through those doors...

The sad news is that while I was going through my slew of doctor’s appointments (trying to fit them all in one day)  and rejoicing in the fact that my blood work and labs showed that I was indeed cancer-free; ironically and sadly a shooting was getting ready to occur directly across the street at Brigham & Women's Hospital, from where my appointments for the morning had taken place. Allegedly, a gentleman (whose mother had apparently undergone cardiovascular surgery in November of 2014 and had died) entered the hospital looking for her surgeon, shot him and then turned the gun on himself.
I am quite sure that when that surgeon had woken up yesterday morning he had had no idea that this would be his last day of life.  Sadly and tragically, he died from the wounds.  My heart goes out to his family as he was someone’s husband, the father of three young children and his wife is 7 months pregnant with their fourth child on the way.  I am praying for that family…
Here I was rejoicing over the news that I am healed and well and (after my appointment this June) will go from having to see my oncologist once every 6 months to once a year, right across the street from where I was -  a highly respected and young,talented surgeon died from an absolute senseless act of violence.
*None* of us are promised tomorrow.  Although we live like we are.  We live like tomorrow is owed to us.  It is not.
Someone recently asked me if, when I had been diagnosed, I had thought I was going to die.  The question caught me off guard and I had to really think about it before I answered.  The answer, was no.  Not once did I think about dying.  Why?  Because  my focus was not on “dying” but on fighting to live.  Each second, each minute, each hour, each day as I underwent a lumpectomy, chemotherapy and radiation; if I had focused on dying – I would have lost the ability to fight to live.  And believe me, that is a big part of going through treatment.
I think the other thing is the fact that I know Who it is my trust is in.  The Bible tells me:
“The number of my days He will fulfill.”  (Exodus 23:26)
So I trusted that.  It also tells me : 
“To live is Christ, to die is to gain.” (Philippians 1:21)
My mind would not go there.  I had to do my part in my treatment – and that was focusing and fighting to live.  If I had given up, I most definitely would have died.
One of the most wonderful things about being a Christian, is knowing that my faith does not lie within myself.
“The LORD is my rock, my fortress and my deliverer; my God is my rock, in whom I take refuge, my shield and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold.” (Psalm 18:2)
Jesus told a parable about the wise and foolish builders it went like this:
“Therefore everyone who hears these words of mine and puts them into practice is like a wise man who built his house on the rock.  The rain came down, the streams rose, and the winds blew and beat against that house; yet it did not fall, because it had its foundation on the rock. But everyone who hears these words of mine and does not put them into practice is like a foolish man who built his house on sand. The rain came down, the streams rose, and the winds blew and beat against that house, and it fell with a great crash.” (Matthew 7:24-27)
My hopes are built on nothing less than Jesus love and faithfulness.  On Christ my mighty rock I stand all other ground is sinking sand.  All other ground is sinking sand… (This is a song by the way... I did not write those lyrics... LOL)
I have learned (and am still learning) not to trust in myself – but to trust in God. He holds my life in His hands, I do not hold my life at all.  The Bible tells me:
“The steps of the righteous are ordained by Him.” (Psalm 37:23)
(***Let me also mention that the righteousness that the above scripture is talking about - is Christ righteousness - not mine.  WE cannot be and have NO righteousness except for what Jesus did for us by shedding His precious blood on the cross).  The Bible also tells us that:
"Our righteousness is as filthy rags." (Isaiah 64:4)
I’m not saying it’s always easy.  It’s not.  I’m not saying I don’t struggle from time to time. I do!  But my faith and my trust is not in and of myself (or any other person for that matter).  My faith and my trust is in God and what His Word says.
Who is your faith and trust in?  What do you believe and why?
Not one of us is going to live forever – even though we have a natural desire to do so – but the truth is, each day is a precious, precious gift.  Cancer was just a chapter in my life – FIVE YEARS AGO – but it is one that changed the course of my life and my way of thinking forever.  I never take any day for granted (good or bad).  I have learned to savor each day – as if it was a tasty meal put before me because I know that tomorrow – it could be gone.  I thank God each morning for “each blank page of life He gives me to write upon” and I choose to write well!  What are you choosing to write upon the pages of your life that God so graciously gives you?  Isn’t  it time you thought about what type of foundation your “house” has been built upon?  If you were diagnosed with cancer or some terminal illness tomorrow what or who would be your strength?  We tend to put such thoughts out of our head because “we don’t want to think about them.”  But the truth is that bad things happen to people of ALL ages all the time.  Since Adam and Eve sinned in the garden of Eden it brought upon the curses that God said it would, which include, sickness, illness and disease – the results of sin is death.  But the wonderful thing is that:
“God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whosoever believes in Him shall NOT perish but have ever lasting life!” (John 3:16)

That is the rock upon which my house is built.  That is the One my faith is in. Think about this.  That dear cardiovascular surgeon did not go to work that day thinking that it would be his last.  Yet it was. (Please pray for his family…)   While God tells us the number of our days He will fulfill He doesn’t necessarily tell us when that number will be up.

Maybe it’s time you looked at the foundation you are building upon and determine whether it is on solid ground or sinking sand? It’s a thought well worth having…

1 comment:

Don Anderson said...

I see you as a champion rather than a survivor. Great inspiration.