Hello!~~~

Welcome!~

It has now been seven years since I started this blog. How quickly time goes by! We are many members but we are one in the body of Christ. Therefore you do not journey alone! Hopefully through this site you will be encouraged by the fact that many things you are going through in your own walk, others are going through (or have gone through) as well. Sometimes we think we are "going through things alone." But we are not. God said that "He would Never Leave Nor Forsake Us." (Hebrews 13:5) and that "There is Nothing New Under The Sun." (Ecclesiastes 1:9). No man is an island. It's easy to forget that. May the words in this blog help you to think, encourage you in whatever spiritual state you are in and may the Lord use them to help us to grow in Him! He is the Author and Finisher of our faith!

I don’t want any readers to think that I am “promoting” being a prodigal. I definitely am not. But what I am hoping to do – is to encourage those of us who either have had or are currently experiencing a hard time in our walk to be honest about it. Personal conviction is a powerful thing, especially if you truly love the Lord. I think that sometimes the Body of Christ critiques and judges to the point where the person who is at the other end of that pointing finger feels ostracized, alienated and alone. I don't think that that is what Jesus intended. When I read through my Bible - I see a firm yet gentle restoration that Jesus ministered to those around Him. Look at John 21:15-19. When Peter who was at an all time low point in his walk - he was firmly, yet lovingly restored by Jesus. He didn't tear him down, or yell or make him feel any worse then he already did. He spoke to him lovingly and gently - and in doing so, Peter was able to repent and minister in a much more powerful, humble and confident way and it became one of the largest ministries ever.

Please note that I am only a vessel, my calling - to write. I dedicate this blog to the Lord and ask that He use it to reach out and touch whoever needs a special, loving, personal touch from Him. My hope is that the Holy Spirit allows you to see Him through the words (and not me). We go through things so that we can extend our right hand of fellowship behind us to assist and help someone else. Our Bible is the same today, as it was yesterday as it will be tomorrow. (I am far from perfect and do not profess to have all the answers...) but the good news is - Our Heavenly Father does! His love, forgiveness, grace and mercy is real!Nothing you are experiencing in your walk comes as a surprise to Him! May He be glorified through this blog and may God bless you at whatever stage in your walk you are in!~



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April 21, 2010

Okay - Time to BE REAL. Ready? Here we go...

Many of us grow up with expectations set.  I'm a parent now, so I can understand how natural it is for a parent to automatically unintentionally form expectations for her child.  So now I have the ability of looking at it from two points of view.  That "as someone's daughter" and also "as someone's mother."

A lot of the expectations that are set on us are from whatever society we grow up in. I didn't realize until now the pressure we put upon ourselves, and our children.  In many American cultures it is a given that a girl will: Grow up, go to college, marry and have children.  Even in all the princess movies the princesses all live "Happily Ever After."  What is that?... Happily Ever After...???  The bar is set high and disappoint follows when you and your so-called "Prince" don't live "happily ever after."  And as much as as a female, you are disappointed - how much more so for your "Prince"?  Who hasn't met every expectation that you put upon his shoulders.   Ahhhhh and shortly after getting married you hear the question, "Isn't it time for you to have children?" From harmless family and friends.  The kids come.  You juggle married life, work, parenthood and even with God as your foundation - it still isn't a "cup of tea."  I'm not trying to sound negative.  I'm just "bein' real.... and its true...

The pressure, the bills, the tugging on you.  Twenty-four hours in a day and soooo much to do.  No time for yourself.  A messy household, bills that need paying. And you realize - how little you really knew. Maybe you realize that "Happily Ever After" is just that  - a fairytale.  And there you are, looking in the mirror wondering where you go from there.  Can't pray, can't think.  Just "stuck."  And its no one's fault - you bought into the "American Way of Life." And you realize - you never really knew what love is.  You start questioning yourself and wondering where you go from here...

So you are reading this blog and you are thinking - "Hey, no one promised you a rose garden."  Well that is true, and I'm all for taking responsibility for one's self and one's actions.  But its kind of hard when you realize that all you thought you knew - you really didn't... This is where the devil attacks you at your most vulnerable point... And the words to the song "Stairway to Heaven" by Led Zeppelin goes on in my head... "There's a lady who's sure all that glitters is gold, and she's buying a stairway to heaven..."

No one can meet the expectations they set on themselves.  Not one of us is perfect. NOT ONE.  And you can sit here and read my blog in whatever spiritual state you are in - and still I will say - not one of us is perfect.  I say that humbly with no gloating or joy in it.  I use to think I was... well to a certain extent.  I judged others (not intentionally) but I just did.  Ever hear of the saying, "Pride before a Fall?" (Proverbs 16:18)  Oooops - I jus fell off my own pedastal... HARD... And I can truly, truly say - there go I BUT by the grace of God.  And I'm glad at least I can admit it.  I can truthfully say - I am sooo disappointed Lord. Why lie about it?  He knows its the truth anyhow?  But you see - I think admitting where we are at is the first point of "moving forward." Getting back on that right path He has for us - even if we don't know what that path is.  Even if that path is different than how we thought it would be.  The steps of the righteous are ordained BY GOD (Psalms 37:23).  Not by us. And oh how for myself that has been so difficult a pill for me to swallow.  You see - I am a planner.  Take away my ability to plan, and I am at loss.  All of a sudden I feel like a child lost in the woods.  Unsure where the path is... Losing my footing.  Feeling very much alone.  But you know - one thing I DO know even in my current prodigal state is that my Father said, "He would NEVER leave nor forsake me." (Hebrews 13:5). Wow.  That's a promise I have and honestly, in a day and age where people come and go as they please regardless of how it makes you feel, that is a promise that brings me so much comfort.  Because I know that people disappoint can disapoint you all the time.  (I am one of them - I know I have disappointed people unintentionally of course..) But GOD NEVER WILL.

I may not know the plans God has for me - for they are obviously different than I expected.  Or maybe I messed up and now the plans have changed... But you know it's possible that it could be even more wonderful than I ever imagined.  For my Bible tells me, 'I have plans to prosper you, not to harm you.  Plans to give you a hope and a future..."  (Jeremiah 29:22)  By the way - in case you didn't know that - that's a promise you have as well...

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