|Its all in your perception, you either see the rainbow or you don't. Which is it?|
How quickly time flies. Have you ever thought about it? I've been thinking about "old people" - whatever that means. Its all in perspective isn't it? When you are seven years old you cannot wait to be "double digits" TEN. How magnificient that sounded. When you are ten, you cannot wait to be a "teenager" Thirteen sounds sooooo cooool. When you are thirteen you dream of being a "sweet sixteen" with high heels and lipstick and bras and "boyfriends." When you are sixteen - eighteen seems like the age when you are college bound a "young adult." When you are eighteen the cool thing is being twenty-one! There always seems to be a number higher than whatever you were to reach for. What age was it that all of a sudden we wanted to start "counting backwards?" How is that I feel the same at 43 as I did at 16 - only perhaps "wiser." (I hope). I think its because who we are is what is "inside" this outer shell that grows older every year.
If you think about it - we were meant to live "forever" before the fall of Adam and Eve. Can you imagine that? What the Garden of Eden must have been like? More beautiful than we could possibly imagine, I'm quite sure. And think about it - animals that you could understand! LOL I've often thought about how Eve wasn't at all surprised or afraid when the snake started to talk to her. Was that a "normal day occurence?" I find myself wondering about that... Imagine understanding the songs of a bird. Eat your heart out Dr. Doolittle you had NOTHING on Adam! (LOL)
Who are you? I mean really - what defines you? What is it you've always wanted to do and why haven't you done it already? We are pretty good at excuses, aren't we? "Well one day perhaps - after this and that... or when so and so happens..." But here is the thing - why not now? What if later is too late? We put things off assuming that we will have tomorrow. As if we are "owed" tomorrow. I have decided to live each day in full. I won't hold back. I will tell those I love them - that I love them TODAY. I will not let the little itty bitty things that are annoyances eat at me. Life is so short. Even if you live to 101. We were made to live forever, otherwise that desire to do so would not be so strongly instilled within is. The "will" to live. We each have it. Although perhaps there are times in our lives when we wonder about "throwing in the towel" "is it all worth it?" "Can I be all that God wants me to be?" "oh woooooe is meeeeee." STOP. I have learned over the last month and a half - that when we act like that it is like - well it is like - There stands God before you, your Father, giving you this beautiful gift of today of now. All "wrapped in a sunrise" and we look at it and we look at Him and we say "Is that ALL you got? I don't want it!" And we sulk or we have a temper tantrum because life isn't what we expected it would be. "I want this! I want that! You don't care about me! I'm having financial problems! I'm unhappy with my life! Life is not worth living!!!" And we stomp our feet and we act like the spoiled brats we sometimes are. (Come on - someone is getting this...) and God looks at us, and He looks at His creation that He made around us. (You know the one - the one we take for granted every day by not stopping to "smell the roses" that by the way He created... or to hear the birds singing in the trees... Or to look with such pleasure and awe at a sunset at the end of the day.) and He is incredulous. I'm quite sure He is.
I'm not talking only to YOU dear reader. But to me as well. When you are faced with your morality you suddenly see things more "vibrant." Things perhaps were in a "water color hue" before. But when you are going through a time where you realize that you are mortal, that the one thing we all have in common no matter race, religion, etc... Is that not one of us is going to live forever. I don't mean to sound morbid. Not at all. I mean for you to wake up tomorrow - and notice something about the day that perhaps you hadn't noticed before. Something perhaps you took for granted or someone. Or perhaps you've always put yourself "last" maybe its time for you to love yourself as God loves you. Maybe its time for you to ask God - why am I here? What do YOU have in mind for me? Maybe its time for you to realize now is the time.
I do not have all the answers. Not even for myself. In fact, when you are faced with your mortality all of a sudden you feel sooo "inadequate." Almost embarrassed that although you thought you knew how precious life is - you really really didn't. What audacity we have to feel as though we "deserve" tomorrow. Because the truth is - we don't. What a loving merciful God we serve. Who's grace and mercy is renewed every day. Don't put off things for tomorrow. Do them TODAY. There is a saying that I firmly believe - two actually. The first one is one that my father use to say. "Do what you gotta so you can do what you wanna." That is sometimes harder done than said! But there is truth to that. Also I always tell people "don't wait to give me flowers tomorrow. Tomorrow I could be gone - Give them to me today!" In other words. If you love someone - tell them NOW. Don't wait till later. Later you might not get the chance. Not one of us is perfect. But God is. The Bible tells us "He knew you when you were formed in your mother's womb."(Jeremiah 1:5) How wonderful is that? How special you are to your Heavenly Father. How much He loves you. How much He has tried to show us (in spite of ourselves!) that He does.
Age is nothing BUT a number. How you live. Your attitude, your mentality, your actions - those are all the things that are important. How about thinking about that when you wake up tomorrow morning? As you hear the birds chirping outside your window. Or the sun shinning warmly on your back. It's a good day to be alive. Cherish each and every moment. In fact - make every moment count.