It has now been seven years since I started this blog. How quickly time goes by! We are many members but we are one in the body of Christ. Therefore you do not journey alone! Hopefully through this site you will be encouraged by the fact that many things you are going through in your own walk, others are going through (or have gone through) as well. Sometimes we think we are "going through things alone." But we are not. God said that "He would Never Leave Nor Forsake Us." (Hebrews 13:5) and that "There is Nothing New Under The Sun." (Ecclesiastes 1:9). No man is an island. It's easy to forget that. May the words in this blog help you to think, encourage you in whatever spiritual state you are in and may the Lord use them to help us to grow in Him! He is the Author and Finisher of our faith!

I don’t want any readers to think that I am “promoting” being a prodigal. I definitely am not. But what I am hoping to do – is to encourage those of us who either have had or are currently experiencing a hard time in our walk to be honest about it. Personal conviction is a powerful thing, especially if you truly love the Lord. I think that sometimes the Body of Christ critiques and judges to the point where the person who is at the other end of that pointing finger feels ostracized, alienated and alone. I don't think that that is what Jesus intended. When I read through my Bible - I see a firm yet gentle restoration that Jesus ministered to those around Him. Look at John 21:15-19. When Peter who was at an all time low point in his walk - he was firmly, yet lovingly restored by Jesus. He didn't tear him down, or yell or make him feel any worse then he already did. He spoke to him lovingly and gently - and in doing so, Peter was able to repent and minister in a much more powerful, humble and confident way and it became one of the largest ministries ever.

Please note that I am only a vessel, my calling - to write. I dedicate this blog to the Lord and ask that He use it to reach out and touch whoever needs a special, loving, personal touch from Him. My hope is that the Holy Spirit allows you to see Him through the words (and not me). We go through things so that we can extend our right hand of fellowship behind us to assist and help someone else. Our Bible is the same today, as it was yesterday as it will be tomorrow. (I am far from perfect and do not profess to have all the answers...) but the good news is - Our Heavenly Father does! His love, forgiveness, grace and mercy is real!Nothing you are experiencing in your walk comes as a surprise to Him! May He be glorified through this blog and may God bless you at whatever stage in your walk you are in!~

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I am a Breast Cancer Survivor
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July 26, 2010

The Main Ingredient? LOVE

I lay awake thinking last night. I was a bit upset. I'm a planner, and coming down with this disease has put a serious crimp in every aspect of my life. It has caused me to have revelations I didn't want to have. To know things I didn't want to know. I think this is an area where only my friends who are "survivors" can understand fully what I am talking about. Its shown me "who will be there when the going gets tough" and who "will not." A spotlight I didn't want to see. It has shown me people who "feel sorry for me" and people who don't know how to talk to me because "they think I'm going to die." I've sat back and watched this as if I'm watching the life of someone else take place before my very eyes and last night it upset me.  Now I've already mentioned the people who have been there for me - in previous posts and I don't want to belittle that because they are "diamonds." And life long friends - all of them. Its hard when you've been healthy for the majority of your life and all of a sudden you have to "concentrate on getting better." How does one do that? I didn't "concentrate on getting ill" so how do I "concentrate" on getting well? Do I close my eyes REAL tight and say, "I will, I will, I will!" The thing is - I know I will get well. I've left upstate NY to get the best care I can - home in Boston. I've caught this early - and I've met MANY survivors. I don't feel in my spirit that I'm not going to make it through this. I know that the Bible tells me, "The number of my days He will fulfill." And He will.

So I went to bed, upset last night and while I was sleeping - I realized something I already know. The most important thing we can do in this life - is love. Then the scripture that came to my head was 1 John 4:18 "There is no fear in love. Perfect love drives out fear because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love."

That whispered scripture filled me with an overflowing amount of peace. The Bible talks soooo much about love. "Love covers a multitude of sins" (1st Peter 4:8)  "Love your neighbor as yourself" (Mark 12:31) LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE.

 Like a recipe - the "main ingredient" - LOVE. Leave that out and whatever you are doing in life - is YUCKY. BLAH. ICK. Think about it.  This weekend my mom and I watched a movie made about "Julia Childs" I've never been much of cook. Its not one of the gifts I have - although what I make is passable. But I've never been one to "follow" a cookbook. Its kinda like "reading the directions" when you put something together and I'm not a patient person... (Okay Lord - You're working on THAT with me, I know.. ;) But each ingredient put into a dish makes the final results either successful (Yum) or just plain "Yucky." If it is like that with a "recipe for cooking." Shouldn't it be the same rules for life? A life filled with "love" as the main ingredient results in --- Oooh la la! Delicious! One without - well, a life without love is empty. Its hollow. It's just plain - sad.

I can only speak for myself. For I've never told someone I love them if I didn't mean it. Its a gift if you give it wholeheartedly. You can't control how or if someone receives it and that I guess, is the hardest part of loving. But you can love unconditionally. That to me is the best kind of love. I never did understand people at Christmas time or Holidays who would "give gifts in expectation that they would get one back?" I have never given a gift that way. To me - giving and watching a person receive is the most MARVELOUS thing. The excitement, the joy - the fun in watching someone you loves face light up. Now  don't get me wrong - I DO love to receive - but I don't give to "expect it." I've learned that not everyone is that way. It doesn't change the way I love.

Here is the other thing about love - TRUE love. It never goes away. No matter what. It just "stays with you." How wonderful a God we have that has given us things like "taste buds" (LOL) and "love." - they kind of go hand in hand don't they? (Winks at you)... 

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