Tick Tock Goes the Clock~

I took this picture of a vine wrapped around a tree - what does it make you think of? It makes me think of "love" entwined, clinging, wrapping around each other - never wanting to be apart. Loving with all you have to give. What do you see?

 I guess this is a "Double-Blog" day. All day long I've felt a bit "antsy." I think its because I have so much time on my hands while I'm waiting for the fluid to stop draining into this "drain" on my left upper side. They can't remove it until it drains less than 30 ccs. It irritates me and I just get grossed out over the fact that I have a long "straw like tubey thingy" that is inside of me and comes out from my chest and is long enough  to go all the way down my side where there is this squeezy thingy that my mother or the nurse empties out twice a day. So I'm at my childhood home, my mother is at work I'm by myself whereas before I worked full time, I came home to a busy household since I am a wife and a mother of three. (Not to mention the cat and dog - winks at you.) At first before the surgery i found it relaxing - no kids! Quiet, solitude, rest, relaxation.  Now I find it "No kids!" I miss my children. They are with my inlaws - doing fine but my family is very close knit. We've not been separated this long. This is not how I planned my summer. (As if anyone "plans" to be ill). This disease not only affects the person going through it - but also anyone who loves that person. My husband, my children, my mother, my brother, my inlaws. I feel responsible - although I know I'm not.

Isn't it interesting how time is relative? Is it relative to the situation we are waiting? Time either flies or it doesn't. I wonder if when Adam & Eve were in the garden of Eden if they didn't think about "time at all." Because everything was so beautiful. There was so much to discover. There was never to be an end of their "time" until the fall. They weren't "worried" about time. How long those days must have felt when they were banished from Eden. Did they feel every moment until they got into a new routine? How different life must have been to as they had known it before. They were changed. There was no going back. I actually never thought about that before. How hard it must have been those first days, weeks and months. They knew what paradise was like! How hard it must have been to adjust to a totally different lifestyle. I wonder if they looked at their offspring and felt sorrow a new for their sin.

Thank God for His mercy and His grace. And for His love. His incredible love. What is God saying to you in the quiet of the evening? What is He wanting you to hear? Are you hearing Him? Are you listening? Is your day and night filled with distractions and with noise? I have found His voice to be a quiet voice. Not once has He yelled at me. He has directed me, instructed me, guided me, waited for me. Allowed me to make mistakes and learn from them. Do you love the Lord with all your heart? I do. Wherever you are in life right now - He is right there. Sometimes we don't "feel him" right there. But we aren't suppose to go by our "feelings." I think that is the hardest thing for me to accept because I'm a very emotional person. Right now I'm frustrated. I'm restless and I'm probably thinking waaaaay tooo much. Maybe that is why He tells us to "Be still and know that He is God." (Psalm 46:10) He IS GOD. He is on the throne. He is steadfast. He is unchanging.  How comforting that is. So much around us changes - but Our God. Our Father is the same today, as He was Yesterday, as He will be tomorrow.  - I think there is such peace in that, don't you?