It has now been seven years since I started this blog. How quickly time goes by! We are many members but we are one in the body of Christ. Therefore you do not journey alone! Hopefully through this site you will be encouraged by the fact that many things you are going through in your own walk, others are going through (or have gone through) as well. Sometimes we think we are "going through things alone." But we are not. God said that "He would Never Leave Nor Forsake Us." (Hebrews 13:5) and that "There is Nothing New Under The Sun." (Ecclesiastes 1:9). No man is an island. It's easy to forget that. May the words in this blog help you to think, encourage you in whatever spiritual state you are in and may the Lord use them to help us to grow in Him! He is the Author and Finisher of our faith!

I don’t want any readers to think that I am “promoting” being a prodigal. I definitely am not. But what I am hoping to do – is to encourage those of us who either have had or are currently experiencing a hard time in our walk to be honest about it. Personal conviction is a powerful thing, especially if you truly love the Lord. I think that sometimes the Body of Christ critiques and judges to the point where the person who is at the other end of that pointing finger feels ostracized, alienated and alone. I don't think that that is what Jesus intended. When I read through my Bible - I see a firm yet gentle restoration that Jesus ministered to those around Him. Look at John 21:15-19. When Peter who was at an all time low point in his walk - he was firmly, yet lovingly restored by Jesus. He didn't tear him down, or yell or make him feel any worse then he already did. He spoke to him lovingly and gently - and in doing so, Peter was able to repent and minister in a much more powerful, humble and confident way and it became one of the largest ministries ever.

Please note that I am only a vessel, my calling - to write. I dedicate this blog to the Lord and ask that He use it to reach out and touch whoever needs a special, loving, personal touch from Him. My hope is that the Holy Spirit allows you to see Him through the words (and not me). We go through things so that we can extend our right hand of fellowship behind us to assist and help someone else. Our Bible is the same today, as it was yesterday as it will be tomorrow. (I am far from perfect and do not profess to have all the answers...) but the good news is - Our Heavenly Father does! His love, forgiveness, grace and mercy is real!Nothing you are experiencing in your walk comes as a surprise to Him! May He be glorified through this blog and may God bless you at whatever stage in your walk you are in!~

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I am a Breast Cancer Survivor
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July 29, 2010

Tick Tock Goes the Clock~

I took this picture of a vine wrapped around a tree - what does it make you think of? It makes me think of "love" entwined, clinging, wrapping around each other - never wanting to be apart. Loving with all you have to give. What do you see?
 I guess this is a "Double-Blog" day. All day long I've felt a bit "antsy." I think its because I have so much time on my hands while I'm waiting for the fluid to stop draining into this "drain" on my left upper side. They can't remove it until it drains less than 30 ccs. It irritates me and I just get grossed out over the fact that I have a long "straw like tubey thingy" that is inside of me and comes out from my chest and is long enough  to go all the way down my side where there is this squeezy thingy that my mother or the nurse empties out twice a day. So I'm at my childhood home, my mother is at work I'm by myself whereas before I worked full time, I came home to a busy household since I am a wife and a mother of three. (Not to mention the cat and dog - winks at you.) At first before the surgery i found it relaxing - no kids! Quiet, solitude, rest, relaxation.  Now I find it "No kids!" I miss my children. They are with my inlaws - doing fine but my family is very close knit. We've not been separated this long. This is not how I planned my summer. (As if anyone "plans" to be ill). This disease not only affects the person going through it - but also anyone who loves that person. My husband, my children, my mother, my brother, my inlaws. I feel responsible - although I know I'm not.

Isn't it interesting how time is relative? Is it relative to the situation we are waiting? Time either flies or it doesn't. I wonder if when Adam & Eve were in the garden of Eden if they didn't think about "time at all." Because everything was so beautiful. There was so much to discover. There was never to be an end of their "time" until the fall. They weren't "worried" about time. How long those days must have felt when they were banished from Eden. Did they feel every moment until they got into a new routine? How different life must have been to as they had known it before. They were changed. There was no going back. I actually never thought about that before. How hard it must have been those first days, weeks and months. They knew what paradise was like! How hard it must have been to adjust to a totally different lifestyle. I wonder if they looked at their offspring and felt sorrow a new for their sin.

Thank God for His mercy and His grace. And for His love. His incredible love. What is God saying to you in the quiet of the evening? What is He wanting you to hear? Are you hearing Him? Are you listening? Is your day and night filled with distractions and with noise? I have found His voice to be a quiet voice. Not once has He yelled at me. He has directed me, instructed me, guided me, waited for me. Allowed me to make mistakes and learn from them. Do you love the Lord with all your heart? I do. Wherever you are in life right now - He is right there. Sometimes we don't "feel him" right there. But we aren't suppose to go by our "feelings." I think that is the hardest thing for me to accept because I'm a very emotional person. Right now I'm frustrated. I'm restless and I'm probably thinking waaaaay tooo much. Maybe that is why He tells us to "Be still and know that He is God." (Psalm 46:10) He IS GOD. He is on the throne. He is steadfast. He is unchanging.  How comforting that is. So much around us changes - but Our God. Our Father is the same today, as He was Yesterday, as He will be tomorrow.  - I think there is such peace in that, don't you?

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